It's amazing how much you can hurt after some one you really loved and cared about is gone. You hurt deep down inside, it makes you sad to talk about it but somehow you need to tell someone, to let it out, put it in the open, put that deep and unexplainable pain into words. You don't really want sypathy, you just don't want to hold it all inside, and maybe to a certain degree, you need to tell yourself the truth too. Face what has happened and embrace it as your new life.
I have mainly started this blog for two reasons, #1, to let out all those pent up feelings that are banging on the broken walls of my heart, making my chest ache, crying to get out, to be seen AND felt. #2, for the friends who I still have who can not really understand what I am going through, maybe this will help them to understand. And for my friends who do not know what happened, or who maybe are wondering about what kind of person I am. This is my heart, this is who I am and how I feel. These are the thoughts and emotions from the depths of my hearts.
So here is for my friends, and for my heart, please feel free to read, and if you don't understand, that's okay, because I don't really either.
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